Monday, November 15, 2010

i hate you Monday

Today was no fun. At all. I was off today to go to Dr. Dulaney's office to see if the 100 mg of Clomid did its work. I started off the day after a not so restful nights sleep. I tossed and turned all night because I was burning up! Austin joked this morning that it must have been because I was "cooking eggs." My appointment was at 9:45 and for some reason, I had it in my head that I needed to leave by 8:45. Umm, Memphis is an hour and a half away. I didn't think about this until I was in the car leaving. So, knowing I was going to be late, I called the office and they were, thankfully, really cool about it.

I finally made it there and as soon as I sat down, not one...not two...but THREE very newborn baby boys came in with their glowing post-partum mommies. And when I say newborn, I mean very newborn. The mommas were still having lots of trouble sitting down. I had phantom pains when they did. Ouch. So I just stared straight at the floor until my name was called. It was a long 45 minutes.

The appointment was routine. The medicine did not seem to have had any more effects than the last round. The last round's effects being very minimal and obviously unimportant as I am not currently pregnant. It looks like I have one egg that may or may not do anything. It is on the small end of what they hope to see, but at least its something. She did give me the Ovidrel shot to take again on Wednesday so we'll try that again. I called my family and husband and grumbled and groaned. They were sweet and helpful. Thanks're the best. Austin said that we'd just keep on taking ovulation tests and hope for the best. I feel okay about it now. Several hours ago, I was not okay, but after leveling off, I think I'm gonna be okay.

Going through all of this crazy business trying for another baby, I now realize just what an amazing miracle my Andrew really was. I am keeping my fingers crossed for another one just like him. Precious angel.


  1. Oh, Lindsey, what a huge disappointment. It just is unfair that you have to go through this. There are things that dead baby moms shouldn't have to go through--like lactation, post-partum hairloss/bleeding, difficulty in future conception, and future pregnancy issues. If I made the rules, that's what the handbook would look like. I wish I had anything helpful to say, but just know that I'm hoping with all my might that your eggs kick in and you're able to make another beautiful baby....SOON!

  2. Oh what an awful Monday! Thinking of you and sending love. Have you thought about seeing a RE instead of going to the OB? At least that way you can avoid the pregnant and new moms with their babies!((hugs))

  3. It was a terrible Monday all around. It is so unfair what you're going through. I'm hoping and praying for you guys that Andrew's little bro/sis will be on their way soon! Much warmth and love you you.